I’m trying to work out if I should come out as a crossdresser – and mostly why I want to come out…
Why? Is the biggest question… What do I feel I would achieve if I did come out and start dressing up in public?
Why am I so obsessed with this all? I wake up and start thinking about clothes, about makeup… When I can dress up, if I went out, where would I go, what would I wear, how would I deal with abuse?
I want to paint my nails and wear jewellery, go out in boots and skirts, and just be a messed-up genderfluid creature, but why? Why do I want to do this? Would it make me happier? Would it alienate my wife and friends? How would my kids react?
Yes, I could do this all on my days off, and I probably will once I’m more confident with makeup, but part of me wants that to be my life. I see Eddie Izzard running his marathons in earrings and lipstick and thinking that’s how I could be. I could paint my nails for a day, but I’d want to keep it on for the rest of the week…
And “why?” is the question anyone would ask if I told them I want to do this, but I don’t have an answer other than “just because I want to…”
Is that enough?
Positively Catie 
You should be who you want to be, but first talk with your wife. She needs to know and her support is really important to you. It can be a really cruel place when you come outside and you need her support x
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I know, but it’s not an easy thing to get into. I tried before but got a definitely frosty reception…
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